I have diluded myself into thinking people out there give a fig about me. I know a couple of friends read to keep up with me from across the globe, and you do care. Other than that not to many folks give a flying fig. Hell it’s my life and I often barely give a care.

My dh is becoming a joke version, a discusting joke version of the man I married. He’s depressed but denies it. If he denies it the he can preten all is well. But sleeping 10-12 hours (sometimes more!!) isn’t normal, but you can’t tell my dh who knows it all that. He also seems to have given up regular bathing for short touch-up wash-up at the sink, washing face and arm pits and groin and he’s done. The thought of his nasty ass making love to me….YUCK WHAT A MASSIVE TURN OFF!! I told him this more than once and again this is my problem not his. Not my problem I just say no, his problem is no sex from me until he has a normal shower. I went 9 years before meating without sex I can holdout alot better than he can!!!

He still lives in his self constructed bubble of stupidity concerning the Avon. I found out for a fact that I was right and he was flat out 100% in the dark idiotically wrong on the topic but didn’t tell him. I am keeping that info for myself. I will oneday sell avon and use the information then against him.

You see I know my husband cannot stand to see me happy and successful if it means that it’s away from him. He’d be much happier if I were miserable and suffering just like him on his river of DENIAL. He is quit happy that I have gained a bunch of weight, that I look old and ugly. That meens no one wants me but him. If I were happy, had my weight down, died my hair and looked younger, well then someone might find me attractive I could smarten up realize what a total ass he is. If that happens I may leave. In his mind best I stay fat, ugly, old looking and miserable. Little does he know what he does is push me closer and closer and closer to the proverbial door of leaving him.

Mark my words here and now: If our situation does not improve, if he does not improve his attitude towords me and this marriage,if he doesn’t improve himself and personal hygene within the next year, I may well leave for I am greatly unsure of how much fatter I can take him getting. How much sitting and watching tv doping nothing. How much gryping but doing about it. How much deteriation with no effort to save himself I can handle before I leave and never come back!!!!!

My dh, read as dam hubby, said if I didn’t quit selling avon he’d leave me! So I will be quiting after the current avon sells campaign. Yes, I hate myself for it but have little other choice.

My dh is being an asshole and half! Today I hate men.

I haven’t sold alot of Avon, but it’s okay I guess. I haven’t had the money to buy the gas to go out and canvas for customers. My mother continues to be a good customer, my nextdoor neighbor made a small purchase, and I am stocking up on what I can aford to while I still qualify for the 50% discount. Another couple of campaigns and my discount will be based on my sales, which will bring me down to about 20% right now. I will put some more books out, check back on those I’ve left books with, and see if I can’t drum up some more sells for this campaign.

Sunday night kiddo and I will spend the night at my folks’ place. Monday afternoon I have an appointment out near their place, or rather closer to them than here. Mom will look at the Avon books and make another purchase. Take care till next time.

My mom bought some Avon from me. My neighbors have bought some Avon from me. Ahem, PLEASE WOULD Y’ALL GO BUY SOME AVON FROM ME? http://youravon.com/jmiraglio If you, someone or anyone, goes and buys some Avon from my online webstore I’ll shutup and quit whining/begging about it. (I promise!)

That’s what I am to AVON, and that’s what I must put following my name on business cards. I will be getting some card stock, or pre-punch card stock for bussiness cards and print some on my computer. I also need to get a color ink cartridge for the printer so that I can do this all hopefully this week end sometime hopelly.

If you’d like to shop my online Avon shop, you can locate it quite easily by simply clicking this link :  http://www.youravon.com/jmiraglio . You shoup my online store 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, every day of the year! Memorial day, Christmas Day, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, Fourth of July, Labor Day, any and all hollidays the online shop will still be open for bussiness! You can shop in you jammies in the middle of the night, or stay in the jammies and shop at noon! Shop from the computer on your work desk at your lunch break, it doesn’t matter where or whenn but you can shop my online shop anytime!

If you live nearby to me you can check local delivery, and then not need to pay for your orders until I deliver them to you. Or you can pay online and have them shipped to you if you’re a friend and/or friend or family member who lives far away from me. My Aunt Rhonda and Uncle James could help Grandma order from Texas from me online! Other relatives in other places could order as well.

http://www.youravon.com/jmiraglio  is where you can go to begin your online Avon shopping experience. If you have questions, there’s even a link there for you to contact me and ask.

So please, even if you aren’t wanting to order any Avon rifht now, just take a look at how I set up my home page. http://www.youravon.com/jmiraglio

Yes that’s right, I am now selling AVON! Click on http://www.youravon.com/jmiraglio and shop my online Avon store 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, every single day of the year!  If I were techno savy I’d make that cute button/pic a link to my site, but I’m not.

I had some fabric left over after making dgd her pillow case. I made a bag for a deck of cards and their book, picture on the bottom today.  Yesturday I made the apron, picture on the top, that is being held by my youngest son.  No what to do with the rest of the Tinker Bell fabric?

Since I don’t have a bunch of it left,  I may just make little gift bags for some of dgd’s birthday gifties. I may, as I have just enough to do it, use it to cover a paper mache box from WalMart and either give that to dgd,  give it to dgd’s other grandma, or keep the box myself! I may make a couple of fabric napkins and keep them. I may just keep the fabric until a purpose for it comes along. Yup, I’ll do that last one!

I’ve started my own sourdough starter. I’ll update you on that, give you links, etc. tomorrow.

Yesturday I lost grocery money for the entire month’s worth of groceries! Bummed is merely code for what I will not put into print! EDITED TO ADD: my parents are lending us grocery money for the month!

This is the pillow case that I made dgd today. I know you cannot tell from the picture, but it’s a full normal sized pillow case. Actully it’s a little bit bigger than a “normal” pillow case as I made it big enough I could get my pillow, tempur pedic type pillows, in it easily. This way it should fit whatever pillow dgd is using right now while living with her mom and other grandparents. I have enough of the materials left I could make another pillow case, or something else for dgd. I am not sure what, if anything, I might make with it for this coming birthday of her’s (in July). {I guess I need to get her a pillow?}

I also have some Avon things for her as birthday gifts. I have four roll-on soap body paints for her, four differant trial sized bubble baths, four differant flavored lip balms, and a plastic little purse that can hold/carry the items if she so chooses.

Yesturday Norman was castrated. Now don’t comment and tell me it’s called Nutering, it isn’t. The papers from the vet say he castrated in that his testicls were removed. Anyway, he’s still a little tender and every now and then he acts a little gingerly. But for the most part he’s doing great. At this rate he’ll be completely back to normal within the next three days or so.

Well the wall hanging is almost all together. I finished the last block today and began to construct the wall hanging. As you can tell from the pic, I am not piecing the center panel but doing it as one whole piece of fabric. Call it laziness, call it a love for this batik, whatever you want to call it this is how I chose to do this one!

I hope to have this finished and in the mail by next monday. The lady to whom it goes got out of the hospital today after a 3 motnh stay. Now you, and she for that matter, might be wondering just why turtles? Well I’ll tell her in a hand written letter, you’ll have to keep wondering!

Tomorrow I will go to my parents’ home and go to mom’s shed. I have stored my fabric stash there for about the last 3 or so years, and I am going to go shopping (and sorting and trashing) threw my stash tomorrow! I have a number of small, to smallish, projects lined up and which I chose to do next will depend highly on what I find (and in what condition I find it!) in my stash tomorrow. I’ll take kiddo’s camera to get good pic’s and let y’all know. {I figure I’ll have to wash and dry whatever I bring home as I was still a heavy smoker when I packed the stuff so it likely stinks like ciggies, eeewww.}